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Ultron Trailer Thoughts

First up, I am absolutely dying for new canon. I miss writing in MCU. I want to write in MCU. I just...can't anymore because I've wrung all the plot bunnies I can from Avengers, and I'm not exactly sure what to write about in the wake of Cap 2. Frankly, I want my fandom back from Steve/Bucky. It's not that I hate the pairing. I just hate how much it dominates MCU fandom these days. I click through people's pinboards and AO3 bookmarks, looking for something I want to read, and it's all Steve/Bucky all the time. Which is great if you like Steve/Bucky, and pretty lonely if you do not. I miss the early days of MCU fandom, when people were throwing together random characters and testing out different ships and exploring how egomaniacal people with mismatched personalities might slowly become friends.

I do have a few MCU stories in my WIP folder, but the only one that's anywhere close to completion is the crack about Natasha being on a reality cooking show. The rest probably had a plot when I started, but hell if I know what they're supposed to be about now.

First, I'm really sad that Tony made the Ultron. I really love his redemption arc, and I love the character in general, so I'm super sad that he wrought great destruction from his good intentions (although that is totally the sort of thing he would do).

Now onto my unpopular fannish opinion: I am totally fine with Bruce/Natasha if that's what happens. It's obvious from my fanfic that I like Clint/Natasha a lot, and I think that's what the writers of the previous movies were setting up. (I mean, hello, Nat is wearing an arrow necklace in Cap 2. Most people don't wear jewelry for people who are just friends.) That said, the relationship is ultimately fanon, and I don't want to be so attached to my fanon that I reject new canon when it appears. And Bruce/Natasha is interesting! Yes, she's afraid of the Hulk, but she also fought by his side in an alien invasion. No, Bruce doesn't trust the Black Widow, but yes, he got over those feelings to fight beside her. What they have in common is guilt over destruction they've caused, the feeling that there's something dark inside both of them, and knowing what it's like to do something terrible that's not entirely within your control. Also, I imagine that Nat is feeling misused by SHIELD the same way Bruce does. Those are pretty profound things to have in common, and I doubt they're going to find that kind of understanding in other people.

Anyway, I feel like we can all keep our Clint/Natasha shipping without too much trouble, regardless of what happens in Ultron. Of course, there is the time-honored fannish tradition of ignoring canon we don't like. However, there's also the much more interesting (in my opinion) option of writing about Clint and Natasha having a temporary breakup. What drove them apart? What draws them back together? How does Clint deal with knowing that Natasha had someone else, if only for a little while?

Anyway, if you too are open to exploring Bruce/Natasha, here's the story that sold me on them:

although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight. (6337 words) by paperclipbitch
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Avengers (2012)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Bruce Banner/Natasha Romanov
Characters: Natasha Romanov, Bruce Banner, Tony Stark, Nick Fury, Steve Rogers
Additional Tags: Post-Movie(s)

Post-movie. “You shouldn’t google yourself,” Natasha tells Bruce.

Yeah, I really wish you could filter things out of AO3 searches. Part of my frustration is that even when you browse tags for pairings/characters you like, Steve/Bucky is there too...usually as the main pairing and the whole point of the plot. I don't hate the ship; I just want a break from it.

The reality show thing probably will get finished. It just keeps growing, and now I need to rewatch some reality cooking shows to remember what kind of challenges they have...This is getting kind of insane.

That's a good point that just because it's implied in the trailer doesn't mean that it's going to happen. The Cap 2 trailer kind of implied Natasha/Steve, but that certainly didn't happen in the film.